Must the other pursue...

Life in a Love
Escape me?
Never—
Beloved!
While I am I, and you are you,
So long as the world contains us both,
Me the loving and you the loth,
While the one eludes, must the other pursue.
My life is a fault at last, I fear:
It seems too much like a fate, indeed!
Though I do my best I shall scarce succeed.
But what if I fail of my purpose here?
It is but to keep the nerves at strain,
To dry one's eyes and laugh at a fall,
And baffled, get up to begin again,—
So the chase takes up one's life, that's all.
While, look but once from your farthest bound,
At me so deep in the dust and dark,
No sooner the old hope drops to ground
Than a new one, straight to the selfsame mark,
I shape me—
Ever
Removed!

DREAM

what is the meaning of "Dream"??

semua orang pasti pernah bermimpi...dan mempunyai mimpi. entah itu mimpi buruk ataupun mimpi indah semua manusia pasti mengalami mimpi. dalam hidup manusia tidak pernah dilarang untuk bermimpi..apapun impian mereka toh mereka hanya memimpikannya dalam pikiran mereka, tanpa perlu konspirasirasi dari orang lain..jadi itu salah satu alasan sah-sah saja untuk mempunyai mimpi :)dont know exactly what is the meaning of dream...so many experts tries to define the meaning of the dream with their own words and thought...tapi siapa peduli itu hanya sekedar teori kok, lagian itukan rumusan mereka, belum tentu sesuai dengan apa yang menjadi pengertian mimpi menurut aku sama dengan mereka. menurut ku mimpi itu 'the second life' dimana aku bisa menjadi pribadi lain di luar kehidupan real ku..dimana aku bisa men'create' pribadiku menjadi seperti apa yang aku harapkan. aku punya mimpi pengen jadi milyuner, bisa membeli apapun yang ku mau...sah sah ajakan??wong cuman mimpiku kok..impianku..aku pengen jadi artis, aku pengen jadi kayak si ini..atau pengen kayak si itu...yang dalam kehidupan real sangat tidak mungkin bisa terwujud. semuanya dalam impianku nggak ada polisi yang nangkap karena aku ngerampok (dalam mimpi loh)tapi terkadang mimpi itu lah yang menghancurkan dan membuat kita terlena. saking terlenanya sampai kita lupa pada kenyataan yang ada. kayak film inception,inti ceritanya yach seperti itu,jangan sampai impian yang mengendalikan kita,tapi kita sendirilah yang harus mengendalikan hidup kita,diri kita..just trying to be real...this is life...f****** life....

Always for the first time

Always for the first time
Hardly do I know you by sight
You return at some hour of the night to a house at an angle to my window
A wholly imaginary house
It is there that from one second to the next
In the inviolate darkness
I anticipate once more the fascinating rift occurring
The one and only rift
In the facade and in my heart
The closer I come to you
In reality
The more the key sings at the door of the unknown room
Where you appear alone before me
At first you coalesce entirely with the brightness
The elusive angle of a curtain
It's a field of jasmine I gazed upon at dawn on a road in the vicinity of Grasse
With the diagonal slant of its girls picking
Behind them the dark falling wing of the plants stripped bare
Before them a T-square of dazzling light
The curtain invisibly raised
In a frenzy all the flowers swarm back in
It is you at grips with that too long hour never dim enough until sleep
You as though you could be
The same except that I shall perhaps never meet you
You pretend not to know I am watching you
Marvelously I am no longer sure you know
You idleness brings tears to my eyes
A swarm of interpretations surrounds each of your gestures
It's a honeydew hunt
There are rocking chairs on a deck there are branches that may well scratch you in the forest
There are in a shop window in the rue Notre-Dame-de-Lorette
Two lovely crossed legs caught in long stockings
Flaring out in the center of a great white clover
There is a silken ladder rolled out over the ivy
There is
By my leaning over the precipice
Of your presence and your absence in hopeless fusion
My finding the secret
Of loving you
Always for the first time

That girl.....

She should never have looked at me
If she meant I should not love her
There are plenty…men..you call such
I suppose..she may discover
All her soul too…if she pleases
And yet leave much as she found them
But I am not so and she knew it
When she fixed me,glancing found them

What??to fix me thus meant nothing?
But I can’t tell (there’s my weakness)
What her look said! No vile can’t sure
About need to strew the bleakness
Of some lone shore with its pearl seed
That’s the sea feels, no strange yearning
Where’s there’s chance of least returning

Oh observe,of course next moment
The world’s honour in decision
Trampled out the light for ever
Never fear but there’s provision
Of the devil’s to quench knowledge
Let’s we walk the earth in capture
Making those who catch God’s secret
Just so much prize their capture

Such am I : the secret’s mine now she has lost me, I have gained her
Her soul’s mine and thus grown perfect
I shall pass my life’s remainder
Life will just hold out the proving
Both our powers, alone and plendid
And then come next life quickly
This world’s use will have been ended

I am not yours

I AM NOT YOURS

I am not yours not lost in you
Not lost although I long to be
Lost as a candle lit at noon
Lost as a snowflake in the sea

You love me and I find u still
A spirit beautiful and bright
Yet I am who long to be
Lost as a light is lost in light

Oh…plunge me deep in love put out
My senses, leave me deaf and blind
Swept by the tempest of your love
A taper in a rushing wind