Always for the first time
Hardly do I know you by sight
You return at some hour of the night to a house at an angle to my window
A wholly imaginary house
It is there that from one second to the next
In the inviolate darkness
I anticipate once more the fascinating rift occurring
The one and only rift
In the facade and in my heart
The closer I come to you
In reality
The more the key sings at the door of the unknown room
Where you appear alone before me
At first you coalesce entirely with the brightness
The elusive angle of a curtain
It's a field of jasmine I gazed upon at dawn on a road in the vicinity of Grasse
With the diagonal slant of its girls picking
Behind them the dark falling wing of the plants stripped bare
Before them a T-square of dazzling light
The curtain invisibly raised
In a frenzy all the flowers swarm back in
It is you at grips with that too long hour never dim enough until sleep
You as though you could be
The same except that I shall perhaps never meet you
You pretend not to know I am watching you
Marvelously I am no longer sure you know
You idleness brings tears to my eyes
A swarm of interpretations surrounds each of your gestures
It's a honeydew hunt
There are rocking chairs on a deck there are branches that may well scratch you in the forest
There are in a shop window in the rue Notre-Dame-de-Lorette
Two lovely crossed legs caught in long stockings
Flaring out in the center of a great white clover
There is a silken ladder rolled out over the ivy
There is
By my leaning over the precipice
Of your presence and your absence in hopeless fusion
My finding the secret
Of loving you
Always for the first time
All About Life...Love....and Laugh...
Senin, 07 Juni 2010
Minggu, 30 Mei 2010
That girl.....

She should never have looked at me
If she meant I should not love her
There are plenty…men..you call such
I suppose..she may discover
All her soul too…if she pleases
And yet leave much as she found them
But I am not so and she knew it
When she fixed me,glancing found them
What??to fix me thus meant nothing?
But I can’t tell (there’s my weakness)
What her look said! No vile can’t sure
About need to strew the bleakness
Of some lone shore with its pearl seed
That’s the sea feels, no strange yearning
Where’s there’s chance of least returning
Oh observe,of course next moment
The world’s honour in decision
Trampled out the light for ever
Never fear but there’s provision
Of the devil’s to quench knowledge
Let’s we walk the earth in capture
Making those who catch God’s secret
Just so much prize their capture
Such am I : the secret’s mine now she has lost me, I have gained her
Her soul’s mine and thus grown perfect
I shall pass my life’s remainder
Life will just hold out the proving
Both our powers, alone and plendid
And then come next life quickly
This world’s use will have been ended
I am not yours

I AM NOT YOURS
I am not yours not lost in you
Not lost although I long to be
Lost as a candle lit at noon
Lost as a snowflake in the sea
You love me and I find u still
A spirit beautiful and bright
Yet I am who long to be
Lost as a light is lost in light
Oh…plunge me deep in love put out
My senses, leave me deaf and blind
Swept by the tempest of your love
A taper in a rushing wind
Rabu, 04 November 2009
Keep calm and going shopping
I just watching his (ya...exactly my ex boyfriend)wedding day via twitter..ya our lovely best friends reported completed with their photos...ya my ex boyfriend..AG getting married...so..whats up!!!i just blame my self,why I ever been in love with him...but how do I know??when I was with him..he's just nothing...just an ordinary boy...but now...look at him...he's become a very famous doctor in His country and marry a very rich girl...*sigh*...I was totally awful on that day..i hate my twitter...but my eyes cant see other things...just see my notebook....so I planned something :SHOPPING,this idea just come and totally change all my schedule on that day..but I thot it's very great idea. My friend,i called her Lady diva said if her in low condition like that..she's just went out to some boutiques and spent her money there. But...thats not my style...so...just went out to the mall with my best friend.What actually r u looking for here?????i just come and go..to one booth to other booth...buy something that I dont think I need it...When my cash on my purse are limited..I just quit...no I dont want use my credit card...I just wondered how can I do this stupid thing...I just almost spend all of my salary for one month..ooooopssss....and see what on my shopping bag: some tshirt (fine I can wear it),short pants (totally 5..and same brands different colours),2 stilletos (fine...),sun glasses(fine)..and parfume...(guess what...its his parfume...sucks)....oh..God...so stupid..I just spend money to something useless...
Tululinit!!!an sms from him....(Oh my God):'honey how are you today?give me the reason why you didnt come on my wedding day?'....what!!!!!hoooooohhhhh....and the reason cause i am going shopping stupid boy...I got a heart attack and no...nooo...nooo no more tears for him...I hate this...
Let me forget about him...so how bout the other shops...i dont care bout the money...dont care bout you..just care bout shopping...hikkssss....hikssss....
Tululinit!!!an sms from him....(Oh my God):'honey how are you today?give me the reason why you didnt come on my wedding day?'....what!!!!!hoooooohhhhh....and the reason cause i am going shopping stupid boy...I got a heart attack and no...nooo...nooo no more tears for him...I hate this...
Let me forget about him...so how bout the other shops...i dont care bout the money...dont care bout you..just care bout shopping...hikkssss....hikssss....
Kamis, 29 Oktober 2009
Love in a life
Love in a life
Room after room,
I hunt the house through
We inhabit together.
Heart, fear nothing, for, heart, thou shalt find her....
Next time, herself! not the trouble behind her
Left in the curtain, the couch's perfume!
As she brushed it, the cornice-wreath blossomed anew:
Yon looking-glass gleaned at the wave of her feather.
Yet the day wears,
And door succeeds door;
I try the fresh fortune
Range the wide house from the wing to the centre.
Still the same chance! She goes out as I enter.
Spend my whole day in the quest--who cares?
But 'tis twilight, you see with such suites to explore,
Such closets to search, such alcoves to importune!
Jumat, 09 Oktober 2009
A farewell
A FAREWELL
With all my will..
But much against my heart
We two now part
My very dear
Our solace is the sad road lies so clear
It needs no art
With faint,averted feet
And many a tear
In our opposed path to persevere
Go thou to east,I west
We will not stay
There's any hope it is so far away
But,O,my best
When the one darling of our widow head
The nursling grief
Is dead...
And no dews,blur our eyes
To see the peach-bloom come in evening skies
Perchance we may
Where now this night is day
And even through faith of still averted feet
Making full circle of our banishment
Amazed meet;
The bitter journey to the bourne so sweet
Seasoning the termless feast of our content
With tears of recognition never dry....
With all my will..
But much against my heart
We two now part
My very dear
Our solace is the sad road lies so clear
It needs no art
With faint,averted feet
And many a tear
In our opposed path to persevere
Go thou to east,I west
We will not stay
There's any hope it is so far away
But,O,my best
When the one darling of our widow head
The nursling grief
Is dead...
And no dews,blur our eyes
To see the peach-bloom come in evening skies
Perchance we may
Where now this night is day
And even through faith of still averted feet
Making full circle of our banishment
Amazed meet;
The bitter journey to the bourne so sweet
Seasoning the termless feast of our content
With tears of recognition never dry....
Sabtu, 03 Oktober 2009
Love and death
LOVE AND DEATH....
Shall we, too, rise forgetful from our sleep
And shall my soul that lies within your hand
Remember nothing as the blowing sand
Forget the palm where long blue shadow creep
When winds along the darkened desert sweep??
Or would it still remember tho' it spanned
A thousand heavens, while the planets fanned
The vacant ether with the voices deep?
Soul of my soul, no word shall be forgot
Nor yet alone,beloved shall we see...
The desolation of extinguished suns nor fear
The void where thro' our planet runs
For still together shall we go and not
Fare forth alone to front eternity
Shall we, too, rise forgetful from our sleep
And shall my soul that lies within your hand
Remember nothing as the blowing sand
Forget the palm where long blue shadow creep
When winds along the darkened desert sweep??
Or would it still remember tho' it spanned
A thousand heavens, while the planets fanned
The vacant ether with the voices deep?
Soul of my soul, no word shall be forgot
Nor yet alone,beloved shall we see...
The desolation of extinguished suns nor fear
The void where thro' our planet runs
For still together shall we go and not
Fare forth alone to front eternity
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